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you think you're chocolate

when you're chewing gum

2006-07-20

This moment, when the world is weird but makes sense

One too many entries lately. Ohwell.

Was just packing my room, about time really. I threw away a whole lot of stuff, almost carelessly. But I stopped myself when I saw an old notebook with two photos glued on the front and back covers. The front photo was that of 05A02, still in their secondary school uniforms. I can't remember where I was when the photo was taken. It's such a simple photo, just them kids smiling at the camera, as a newly-bonded class. I love that shot of them! And I can't help but feel like I'm in some sort of movie scene, you know, the one where the character finds an old photo among his/her belongings and reminisces fondly of the past (cue flashbacks)?

It really was a wonderful time. Those kids made me feel joyous and blessed and very simply, happy. And that's what Life is all about sometimes- that moment of pureness. How can I even describe it. *contented sigh*

Which is kinda weird that I don't really talk to them anymore. I am the weirdest person. I miss people but I'm too lazy to go on MSN, and sms and whatever it takes to 'keep in touch'. I don't know, I have this tendency to want to keep beautiful things as they are, in the past. Like how when you take a photo, that beautiful moment stays there. The photographed leave the scene and it's just me and the photo left. I like it like that, in a way, and don't feel lonely. It's weird isn't it.

Of course, any kind of relationship needs effort to maintain. I just have to get my lazy ass moving. Haha.

On another note, the nus matric package thingey arrived in the mail today. It feels weird to think that I'll be a uni student in a few weeks time, that I'm now a student of nus. I even kind of dread attending all the talks, matric fair etc. WHY? I AM excited about learning new stuff (like film studies! omg), it's just- hmm. Growing Up, I guess. HAHAHA. Being less sheltered, meeting new people (some nice and some not so nice), having responsibilities again. It's supposed to be oh-so-exciting, but also kinda tiring.

People are moving away, also. Heading overseas. Heading to far-flung areas of our little island. Seeing how lazy I am, I wonder when I'll ever see them again, or hear from them. I'm glad to be in Singapore really (seeing that it's gonna be august and all). If I have a choice to study overseas or stay in Singapore, I'll choose the latter without much difficulty.

Why? Maybe one of them is because on Singapore Idol today, I heard and saw Tanya Chua sing 'Yellow' so gorgeously and beautifully, that I felt happy and rested, like I just melted on my couch. (Btw, I loved her getup- the yellow shoes! I love bright shoes!)

Everything is simple, isn't it?

Good Luck guys, with everything, wherever everyone is:)

Yux chewed at 10:20 p.m.

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