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you think you're chocolate

when you're chewing gum

2006-05-25

Enjoy the ride, kiddos

I'm in luck today. I'm sitting behind my counter right now, typing away whilst chewing on a substandard mian jian kueh. Thank Goodness the Boss brought in his laptop today, so I can use it. The greatest cure to boredom, the internet:)

I think in a way, I am not completely honest on this blog. In the sense that I don't really give every detail about my life. I like to think of myself as rather mysterious. Haha. I just find myself being very brief and completely random sometimes, is that a bad thing? Maybe in a way, the 'hectic' lifestyle I'm leading right now leaves no room for haha deep philosophical reflections on life or even space for experiences to be FELT.

The paranoid part of me says: Who are the people reading this? Do I even know them and do I even care? It's always a yes and a no. I love it that I have friends reading this just as I read their blogs. It's kinda sad but that's possibly the only few ways you get updated on their lives.

I am sometimes awed by the things that I read, from those same-age compatriots. It's beautiful, as it is funny and entertaining.

What do you call those invisible threads that bind US together?

Anyway, my interview today was. If I go because of a weird sense of obligation, this is what happens. Maybe in my heart I don't believe enough of scholarships, and their so-called POWER. I will not be defined by a scholarship, right?

Although, although, I feel extremely fortunate to be given a chance at least. I think I'm a gazillion times more excited about the opportunities I get to experience at the uni. It's what I like to call the prime of my youth. Haha.

Sometimes I feel like I'm in a labyrinth. I wonder how some people can be so certain about what they want. Is it really that easy, or are they choosing the most obvious way out? I don't want to come out of the wrong exit.

I cannot wait till July, where I'll be released from the clutches of work. YAY! I have all these exciting plans drawn up and I hope they don't go kaput, seeing that procrastination has become my next best friend. Haha.

Can anybody be too blessed?

I thank God continually. I know what I have may pale in comparison with that of others, but I'm sure that He (or if you think, some invisible hand) gives me just what I need, right now.

But am I in a perfect situation right now? Hardly, but I'm not complaining:) Sometimes there's no use searching a way out is it? There may be no exits and the rest of the world's being tricked:) I like to think of it as that.

Yux chewed at 3:40 p.m.

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