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you think you're chocolate

when you're chewing gum

2006-02-04

How it feels like

Yoohoo!

Movie Marathon of sorts yesterday. Watched Fearless and Walk The Line (my first midnight show. K suaku.)!!! Fearless was everything I loved about Jet Li. He's my ultimate kungfu hero:) I so much prefer his non-hollywood flicks. CANNOT STAND weird english kungfu movie titles. They're so weird, they're forgettable.

Walk The Line was a really nice biopic, albeit a little long for my liking. I liked the whole FEEL of the movie. Plus, it had Reese Witherspoon, my fave actress! She looks so pretty and I adore her outfits:) Retro rocks baby. I don't know what got me hooked, it's so inexplicable. I think the pace of the movie was rather slow but there was never a moment that I felt like dozing off (which says alot coming from someone who sleeps pretty early and had tuition before the movie, I was one tired girl). It's so touching and so amazing how vulnerable we can be, rockstars or otherwise. I liked the quiet moments in the movie, the shots on Reese's or Joaquin's face. The body language, the nuances, the stuff which keeps us vulnerable and alive-love, memories, music and even booze and pills.
I should watch it again, on dvd. Haha.

June Carter: It burns, it burns.

I've been thinking about the concept of being alone, and how much I love being with just me. Loneliness does not equate to being alone. You can be alone and not feel lonely but you can be with people and feel isolated. The irony of life. I like visiting bookshops and libraries alone, sometimes even shopping alone. Sometimes just walking home by myself, enjoying the cool night breeze, with noone and nothing to disturb the peace, is pure joy.

I can see why people are afraid of being alone. It makes you seem vulnerable, lonely, friendless. It takes a lot of confidence and courage to not be afraid of being with yourself. To be comfortable in your own skin.

The power of alone-ness. You can do whatever you like, go wherever you want. It's freedom when you don't have to think about your companions and what they would like to do. It's just about YOU. It's about being your own friend. Listening to the music playing in your head. Knowing more about who you are and what you want. You'll start noticing people who are alone too, and wonder where they're going next, and what kind of music that's playing in their head.

Nothing can replace companionship though, it's always good to have people you love around you, sharing wondrous moments. But nothing compares to alone time as well.

Shrug. I will just break down if I don't have time alone! Haha. It makes me a better person really. It makes me more sensitive of my surroundings, to appreciate, to open my senses, to FEEL. That's when I realize how beautiful the world can be and I don't say it to anyone but myself:)

I still wanna catch up with people, I miss them, I miss CONNECTION:)
Really glad to be meeting the ruggers today for dinner!

P/s.HELLO GOLDFISHY!

Yux chewed at 1:48 p.m.

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